life to me can bee a pain in the neck. The reason why I'm posting this is that life can hurt a lot. For me its been a pain for the past 3 years of my high school career. Im not proud of what I've done some stuff is illegal.I've lost close relatives that i love dearly but its been really hard my Grandmother was always there for me pushing me to do better(my moms the same way)but i cant really put my finger on it but i could relate to her she under stand me in a way that mom really can't.Its been hard be cause i wanted her to see me get out of high school i know that that might sound selfish but she has been there for me.My grand father died when i was in the first grade and it didn't hit me until later on the road of life that i missed him so much.He got me in to the Three Stooges Moe Larry and Curly.I'm obsess with them i have dvd episodes of them.Even tho i dont see him any more i know hes spirit is there with me acting as a guide for me and my grandmother is looking down over me.Along with my Great Grandmother she was a card if u like the cowboys you were ok in her book and if u liked Jeff Gorden.I guess why I'm writing this is be cause I have seen a lot of reminders of them lately,and I've been doing some mind seeking to find ways out of my problems and i need to express it some way.Ill probably draw it out some way or another and put it up on here and some other sites that I'm on but for the time being I'm writing this out.I don't know how may years I've kept feeling bottled up but I'm starting to see way its a bad thing to do and i have found a way of expressing it.

-me-